Ok, I'm sorry there are no pictures with this one. I was going to post a cute picture of my nephew but couldn't get the picture to pull up so I'll work on that one tomorrow for you. I warned you earlier that this blog has now become a kind of therapy for me so beware that you might have to weed through more ramblings and emotional outbursts than ever before but I think you can understand and allow me this vice. It won't hurt my feeling if you wish to just skip through these if you just want to see cute pictures of my girlies. I completely understand being addicted to that also.
However, I also use music as a kind of release for me. If I can relate to a song then it touches me deeply. (I think my dad would understand that too. He loved music.) So I don't know if you've noticed or not but the songs I put as background music to this blog are special to me in someway or another. Sometimes it might just be for a theme or time of year (yes be ready for some Holiday tunes soon) but I don't just throw them on here. They have meaning and I take time in picking them and get annoyed when I can't find the one I'm looking for. So, to some of you who might just turn it down, I respect that. Some don't find music that important. That's cool. I get it. BUT I found this song and it kinda explains how I'm feeling right now. Well actually all of them do that are on here but this one hit me hard tonight for some reason. Tomorrow might be different but in general it's my state of mind. Below are the lyrics and it is on my playlist so you might hear it one day as you are browsing the blog. It's amazing and by one of my newest favorite bands; Lifehouse. They are played on mainstream stations but I've read they are also considered Christian so read it with that i mind. Enjoy or skip through but I think everyone can find healing and peace through something and this might be mine, at least for now:
The Broken clock is a comfort It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best Like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart That's still beating
In the pain There is healing
In Your name I find meaning So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to You
The broken locks were a warning You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose They're still looking for life
I'm falling apart I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart That's still beating
In the pain Is there healing
In Your name I find meaning
So I'm holding on I'm barely holding on to You
I'm hanging on another day Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay
The broken light on the freeway Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now But I haven't forgotten my way home
I'm falling apart I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart That's still beating
In the pain There is healing
In Your name I find meaning
So I'm holding on
Barely holding on to You Barely holdin on to You